SCRATCH ALL THOSE DUMB EMOTIONS
lets get drunk.
i would give my hand (buster-style)
….not to have to go in to work today. i don’t want to see/talk/deal with him for any period of time, let alone all day. i would much rather stay in bed all day, watch mad men on my newly fixed internet, and think about how dumb i’ve been. especially lately. i should be punched in the face. but instead of daydreaming about a good(with proper self-reflection time) day:...
now back to work. so much for a long recovery time.
“The reason you haven’t felt it is because it doesn’t exist. What you call love was invented by guys like me, to sell nylons. You’re born alone and you die alone and this world just drops a bunch of rules on top of you to make you forget those facts. But I never forget. I’m living like there’s no tomorrow, because there isn’t one.” -thee don draper
just signed into the guest book of the number one hotel on misery island. this stay could be a bit of a wild ride.
my head is so rational, but my heart is the opposite. my head knows that the things i feel will only get me into trouble or lead me down a road of pain. but, unfortunately, the two separate entities cannot go into deep discussions about the correct course of action, so the glum future is inevitable. im going to wind up in exactly the same situation i was in last year at this time.fantastic.
egapymmij: Jeff Beck - A Day In The Life
this has always been one of my favorite videos. rip ames. vapours: Amy Winehouse | Back to Black
connie from dr. flax's office: you ok? you sound like you've been crying?
1: you are incapable of developing feelings for someone, aren't you?
1: you won't let yourself get attached to anyone
1: you're too afraid of getting hurt to care about anything or anyone
2: i guess that could be true.
1: thats why you always have a hard time developing answers
2: or opinions.
And my dear, dear, dear Khalana, I talk too much about you Their ears are...– (via disappearinginthefade)
There it is. This time I could almost physically see it. The turning point. It’s over and done with.
Though normally being serenaded and having a romantic sing a long would be my dream come true, tonight I’m not buying it and am seeing straight through it. Hollow and empty.
it’s been a very long time since i was too drunk for the internet. or since i even had time for the internet. i hope this (deepa)cation (FOUR DAYS OFF) really helps and changes me. i know it will definitely change me physically (losing about five pounds from surgery on wednesday?) but emotionally also. ive slowly realized that i dont know who i am anymore (MUST CHANGE) so hopefully i can...
FREEFEST 2011 LINEUP
disappearinginthefade: tv on the radio deadmau5 the black keys cee lo james murphy cut copy big sean okkervil river empire of the sun calvin harris ghostland observatory grace porter and the nocturnals porter robinson two door cinema club eclectic method alberta cross bombay bicycle club !!! teddybears patti smith thanks to crc! (i dont know how you found this, but...